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Midnight…

My New Year’s Eve Story…

On the last night of the year…
hope felt easy…
it hummed in my chest…
like a song I thought I finally knew by heart…

I was already living…
in the glow of tomorrow…

Then—
in a breath
the air shifted…

with hard words…
a sudden silence inside…

that old familiar pit
opened in my stomach…
eating up the light
I had just begun to trust…

I laid there in the dark…
for awhile…
just numb…

trying not to embrace it…
yet longing to be embraced…

exhausted…
overwhelmed…

I drifted off…
on cold sheets of glass…

praying not to dream…
just to sleep…
just to forget…
if only for a little while…

At midnight—
I woke…

to colored bombs
bursting in air…

then… despair…

wonderful colors…
of months passed…
seemed no more…

cosmic lonely hit…
it wasn’t a dream…

I just laid there…
thinking…

with my 100-pound heart…

with silent flow…
I wet my pillow…

a quiet deep fountain…
rushing in the night…

eyes I haven’t known…
in awhile…

Eventually—
I fell back asleep…

only to wake again…
at 1:43…

and 3:33…

just to repeat
the things written above…

When I woke the last time—
through the blinds…
lines of sunshine…

warmed me…

like kisses…
all over my face…

Thank You God…

I know it will be ok…

I know it’s going to be a good year 😎`’.,°~

…….⛈️→💃🌧️→🙂<3→😞📅→😊📅→🚫😨→👀→☀️→🌈’…….~⛈~→\o/→<3→↓°→↑°→?→!→|→^°→~^~’

Psalm 102:6–7 ✨️🦉🏜🐦🏠

“I am like a desert owl of the wilderness…
like an owl of the waste places…
I lie awake…
I have become like a lonely bird on a… housetop…”

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Hidden Gems From The B-Side.. Life Side (Week 8)

Tonic 🎶 Open Up Your Eyes 🎶 Mr. Golden Deal…

Hey yall… I got two more songs from Tonic for you…

Open Up Your Eyes — from their 1996 debut album Lemon Parade —
It’s a great one… I like the video too… how they start dancing on the skates at the end… lol

Mr. Golden Deal… also from Lemon Parade (1996)… I love this one… it’s like poetry…

easy to skip past…
worth stopping for…

Hidden gems… I think..
I hope yall enjoy them…

…….💎🎶~→💿🎶’…….<¤>~→||→=||~’

Wishing everyone a Happy New Year in 2o26… here’s to turning pages — not running from them…

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Fireworks and Faith…

God on the Shoulder of the Highway…

It was New Year’s Eve… 1997 into ’98…
I had survived…
The year — I mean… I wasn’t sure I would…

The heart I have today…
was still shaping back then…
burning… crushing…
maybe it was the fireworks outside —
or maybe just my own…

There was a party that night…
at my friends’ house — Sam and Becky…

their place was always full of people…
I spent so many weekends there that year…
it was like my second home…

crazy nights… good nights…
we were all so close…

often I’d bring my guitar…
and we’d sit around until morning…
singing songs… drinking…
and sometimes… yeah… drugs…

I was on an intense champagne high…
I’d had way too much…
I normally didn’t get like that…
I could usually hold my own…
but not that night…

my plan was to crash there…
just pass out on a couch like always…

but around 3 am…
I had some words with a friend of mine…
she pissed me off…

so….. stubborn and spinning…
I grabbed my keys…
made my way to my car…
and decided to attempt the 45-minute drive
back to my apartment…

I honestly don’t remember much
about the first half of the drive…

I somehow managed to make it
onto Interstate 75 North…
and then everything just
kind of went black…

I remember hearing…
and feeling…
this repetitive vibrating —
a low rumbling sound…

I thought I was dreaming…
the sound just kept going…

finally… I opened my eyes…

the strangest moment…
still hard to describe properly with words…

I had passed out while driving…
slipped over
into the passenger seat
of my Camaro…

and my car
was still doing about 60 mph…
riding the shoulder of Interstate 75…
inches from the guardrail…

the sound I was hearing —
the rumble strip…
screaming at me that I was in danger…

I sat up immediately…
grabbed the wheel…
pulled myself back into the travel lanes…
just in the nick of time…

there was an abandoned vehicle
directly in front of me…
I missed it by only a few feet…

I was completely sober now…

I kept driving home…

I just couldn’t believe it…
I could have killed someone…
and almost killed myself…

then…
I had this powerful spiritual moment…

I felt a Presence…
a Holy Voice inside…

I don’t know how long I was asleep…
but I know…

someone had the steering wheel…

I was sure of it…

I talked with Him
the rest of the way home…

and somewhere
on that dark stretch of road…

I made my resolutions
for 1998…

`’.,°~

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Shakespeare & Me & Boyz II Men (Week 9)

Romeo and Juliet — Act II, Scene ii…

Willy `•.

“The more I give to thee,
The more I have,
for both are infinite…”

…

Boyz II Men –¡¡¡¡–

“Sunny days,
everybody loves them…
tell me…
Can you stand the rain?”

…

Me `’.,°~

“You are forever…
molten silver…
weathered in my heart…”

…

…….?→<3→////→⛈?’

…

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Blessed… and a total mess

If you started a sports team, what would the colors and mascot be?

I’d start a women’s mud wrestling team called The Dirty Angels… and the mascot would be a big fat fluffy washing machine with arms and legs and a goofy grin… and the team colors would be like a Dingy White and Georgia Clay Red… with just a sprinkle of pink… to keep the ladies happy… Our team slogan could be something like… “Blessed… and a total mess…” oh… and I’d hire the best coaches and staff… and recruit the best players… haha… cuz anything worth doin’… is worth doin’ right… 🤷‍♂️💣💥😎…’

“Totally ridiculous idea? Absolutely… Would I still buy season tickets? 100%…”

© 2025–2026 Bryan H. All Rights Reserved.

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Held Together…

Lauren Daigle.. Jon from Switchfoot.. I Won’t Let You Go.. 🎼 💙🫂 t…

I’ve lived enough life…
made enough mistakes…
carried enough weight…

to know one thing for sure…

I never held myself together…

I know this for fact…

because I know the One…
who holds me…

together…

He is before all things…
and in Him… all things… hold together…
— Colossians 1:17

¼³💔🔥→🩹💧🩸→😣🧎→🤲🕊️🤝✝→🌅❤️'<3~🔥→/↓→_~…~†→=|=→^°’ `’.,°~

Stay til the end… for the harmonies… 3:42… ☝️

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Into Nothing…

My dream from last night…

In my sleep last night…
I opened my eyes…
I was inside a massive mansion—

I mean huge…

The longest hallways one could imagine…
It was dark…
but enough light creeping through
that I was able to see…
and exist in it…

It was a kind of quiet
I’ve never heard before—

I was totally alone…

Absolutely terrified…
but I kept myself together…
I didn’t know what else to do…

So I just started walking…
down the hallway…
pausing at times…
looking into the rooms…

There was something familiar
about some of them…
but I don’t know what…

And then the lonely started hitting me
hard…

A kind of lonely I’ve never felt…

As if I were the only living thing
in existence—

Absolutely nothing else…
no one to talk to…
no one to pray to…
nowhere to go…
no place to call home…

A cosmic lonely—

Where you are it…
in the entire universe…

The feeling was unbearable…


and the emptiness I felt…


can’t be compared to anything…


Just utterly lost…


…into nothing…


…….,-‘

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People Are My Politics…

How have your political views changed over time?

Oh yeah baby… I get around
I’ve stood in different places… believed different things… carried just about every opinion imaginable at some point
And honestly… I appreciate that… because it’s helped me respect people with all kinds of views…

That’s the beauty in my “politics…”
I’m all about people…

Not their labels
Not their party
Not their category
Not their “side”

Yeah… I have beliefs… political… faith wise… life wise
My journey started early

I was maybe 8 years old when I asked my grandmother what the difference was between red and blue
She smiled and said… Democrats are for the poor man and Republicans for the rich… geeees grandma…

So that’s where it all began
And wow… it’s been a journey I tell ya…

But today

None of it matters much…
People matter…
Hearts matter…
Humans matter…

So let’s love them… you and me
That’s the only “politics” I care to fight for anymore…

trust everyone…
but cut the cards…

…….🤠🤝🤫🛻🪪🖖🛰️🕛🏜️🔫💰🤦‍♂️…….→🤠+🤠→~ID~→☆PICARD☆→🕛🏜️→🔫⇄💰→🧠↓’…….🤠🕛🏜️🔫💰🤦‍♂️’…¡~¡ <³ 🫏 🐘 🏍

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Hidden Gems From The B-Side.. Faith Side (Week 7)

Big Daddy Weave 🎶 Revive Us Again 🎶 What Life Would Be Like…

Hey y’all… happy Sunday… it’s good to be here with you… it’s good to be alive…

Today’s Hidden Gems come from Big Daddy Weave… both songs off the album What Life Would Be Like 2o08…

First is “Revive Us Again.”
An old hymn… a living prayer… and one that holds a special place in my story… I used to play this one on my guitar at a nursing home… surrounded by friends… surrounded by voices… surrounded by hope… those were good times..

Second is the title track “What Would Life Be Like…”All the songs on this album are special to me… they are from my ministry days… with my friends… with Beavis… with myself… I spent much time learning this album on my guitar… praising… worshipping… my King…

I also included a bonus video of Mike Weaver sharing a short story about his friend being healed of cancer… it’s beautiful and worth the watch…

So press play… take it in… life is short… and oh so beautiful… 😎’

…….🤔→🌱→🌍✨→✝💓→↔️👫’…….❤️❤️❤️→🔥🔥🔥→💓🔥💓→🌌→🕊→✨→🙏’

All our hearts… they burn within us…
All our lives… we’ve longed for more…

“You make known to me the path of life… in Your presence… there is fullness of joy…” Psalm 16:11 💥